Empty Apartment

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

FRAGMENTION

"love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear drop."

Well! but for me it was quite a diffrent case. It did begin with a smile but ended with a kiss and when i realized that the lock on the door had been changed a long time back, then came the time for tear drops.(i cant call them just tear DROPS though) i used to...

"lay awake at night,
see things in black and white.
the moment i closed my eyes,
the pillow was soaked by those silent cries."

It drove me crazy, i went mad, insanity was all over my heart and brain, and the only thing i knew was,... i was in love, in more love and much more love with him , but now... he, yeah he...!!! was with my umm....... BEST FRIEND!!!! i couldn't believe or maybe i didnt want to. Man! i was romantically callenged and I bet,no successful cardiologist in this damn whole world would have had a remedy to heal my ultra fragile four chambered pump.

This is how it all went---7th grade: he saw me dancing , felt butterflies and started liking me. ---8th grade: asked me out after doin all the hardwork one could possibly do to get a gurl, i said YES!!---relationship grew stronger and feelings grew deeper as each day, each hour and each second passed by---9th grade(end): we kissed(that was my first and the most speacial one). After two months i got to know that he's been dating my best friend, by saying best friend i actually do mean my BESTEST FRIEND!!!!(since 6th grade)DAMN!! OUCH!! so, it ended with a kiss. i wonder if it was supposed to be a goodbye kiss.

He, the guy who made me realize that there is something called love, he the guy who made me aware that its possible to create such special feelings for a complete stranger. The special feelings i had never felt before and wonder if i would ever in future.But he, the guy who made my world soo unimaginably beautiful broke my heart into soo many fragments that its little impractical to express it on paper but all i can say is - "the saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you."

I was SHOCKED!!!, SCATTERED!!!, BROKEN!!!that was the time i realized i was in love and that it's LOVE FOR SURE!!!. Hey dude , i love you not only for what you are but for what i am when i am with you. I hope that one day you'll understand that what i have for you is love. that, seeing you do those things hurts and that its damn tough to take this sour pain all by me, myself and I, without letting any other soul know what i am feeling deep down. But sometimes "letting go" is considered better because i dont intend on ruining things for you and her. But i just need to confess,I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU!! YEP, I LOVE YOU! and I just know its love!!! i dont know WHY!?! I dont know HOW!?! I dont know from WHEN!?!but i guess.....

"love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."